Being a Third Party Doesn't Suck Bigtime!
Women causes trouble in men's life...
Women are more aggressive than men...
Women of today are liberal minded...
Women are weak and are strong at the same time...
Women get crazy, head-over-heels,insane, overpowering when they are deeply in love...
Women are women no matter what happens, women are UNPREDICTABLE BEINGS...
I am a woman of today.. Im too young to talk about love, but who cares??
I am speaking my heart & mind out (and i dont fucking care who reads this and even if your girl reads this)!!
I know being a third party is a sin. I was not expecting anything like my situation right now, to ever happen to me. You know, Im a girl with so much conviction, I stand up for what I believe in. Im strong if I may say so. To be truly in love is something that I have ever wanted in my life and now that I am into it, I feel that Im about to breakdown...
I have been a "later-priority-girl" for 6 months now and i should say that this was my longest relationship ever with a guy (i want to laugh whenever I think of this).
Now, why the hell am I sticking up to him til now??? It's because I fucking love that dumbass guy! I love his every imperfections, his no-sense-of-fashion-style, his height, his voice, his lighthearted smile, his pair of deep-set eyes (that makes me go loco whenever I look at it), his simple gestures that are always the sweetest.
I love everything about him.. We have so much in common. He is perfect for me... Nobody can ever compare to him... He's a unique, a kind of guy you will never ever be able to forget...(Deym, I hate this!!)
He and his girl are on for 6 years full of love with devastation now.
How come I manage? I love him.
There were so many things that had happened to us that i might say, were the sweetest. Almost everything were "first-times". I have experienced everything I wanted in a relationship. He told me he HAD LOVED me. I have felt that before.
Now, we're nothing but cold Decembers, silent bombs and stiffed individuals.
Though we still see each other, chat and text, laugh and talk about sweet nothings, it's nothing compared to as before.
Why am i sharing this?
For the girls who want to be in a serious relationship but got caught up with my kind of situation...
Before you enter a relationship like this, make sure that you will win at the end. Make sure you have his heart and he's willing to break-up with her. Have an assurance in everything you do all the time. But first, THINK. If you really want to be serious about him, you must take a lot of thinking. When i say a lot, i also mean a long time!This is a very risky situation and everything must work out in favor of you.
There are a lot of reasons why we can't escape this "third-party-situation", which all gets to the bottom and man,, the root is none other than LOVE!!
And if you're a girl who think that being serious isn't your 'thang' , you can always find an easy way out. Besides, you know how to spell FUN!! Just make sure that your heart wont get along your way! Heart is too powerful than your mind.
I want to tell you that being a third party might look cool or audacious but it really sucks big time once you fall so unfathomably in love...

Mendacity

I dont understand myself anymore.. i know what i want, but now that i have it, i just don't seem to be contented. Im not that happy.. Something is missing. Something very important.
Im feeling terribly miserable ayt now and i dont even seem to understand my own mind. It's telling me to do something but I cant seem to figure it out.
Im...
Im....
Im...
Sorry for this..
Im happy, but im not contented. I want something but I cant have it. I got you but ......
Oh damn.......
Im drowning in my selfishness. I only want to give understanding to myself not knowing how to understand others.
Im selfish, sometimes. I know.
Im a bitch. You just can see it...... You're blinded by me....
I hate myself...........
I hate writing this but i want to pour out my miseries through this...
I seek for something i dont know.
I crave for something unreal.
I bleed for something I dont feel.
aaaaaahh!!
Am I fooling you or is it myself that Im causing these shits?
I dont know....
Im blind..
Wish I was numb for me not to feel dreary...
Pain that I've caused myself streaks right through my very veins all the way to my subconscious, eating up my brains, causing me to think absurdly.
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I cant say this....
goodnight........